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Yesturday was my 1 year annivesary for my back surgery and my joining the CES club...wooohooo...let's celebrate...NOT...Have I said how sick I am of this...bout a thousand times you say????? Surely not...yes I do have just a hint of sarcasm...I thought for sure this would be done with by now...I am tired of dealing with this...I want it over...Happy Anniversary...big whip....lol...can we tell I am a happy camper right now??? I remember how good I felt when I woke up and I had no leg pain...then I realized my leg was numb and I was so doped up I didn't know I was in the world much less in pain...now I deal with narcotics and the after effects of them...Yes dears....constipation seems to be a sign of the times lately for we sufferers....could it be the moon???? lol.....I have decided to turn my life into a comedy routine ...I know in all this depression, weight gain, sexual dysfunction and uncontrolable farts there has to be something to laugh about..I mean I make Maxine look like Jackie O....and that is hard...cause I look like Maxine now.....I am one year post op....I really thought I would be up and running...well I would like to be up and walking...somedays I am...somedays I am not...I wish spring was here...that will help tremendously....I am sure of it...lack of sunshine...hmmmmm.......poop problems....yep....sounds like a new song title to me......."Poopers in the Night"....by Frankly I don't give a damn.....lol....Ahhhhhhhhhh the life of Ces....and this too shall pass....
I have been having issues that are the same issues I have had for the past year...I can read this and see yes...I have improved....but I have just moved on to other tests or trials....weight gain....I so want to lose weight...it is crazy...one of the medications that I have has side effects that include weight gain...woo hoo...I love that....then sexual dysfunction...I wonder why I am worrying about this now...the only thing I can contribute it to is that I am finally feeling better and want sex...ummmmmmmmm yeah....I am 56 NOT dead....I love sex...I just wish I could feel it now...feel it to the point of the big O....lol...I find that getting just to the brink of no return and reaching that momentous moment is always left just out of reach....thank you...it is like going bungy jumping and dressing up for it and gathering every fear in you soul and putting yourself on that steel platform and all strapped up and praying and .......ooopsss no more jumps today....call us next week...thank you...sorry no returns....mother nature the wind changed you know...come again next week.....yeah right...I wish I could come next week....lol...ok....and the worst thing is ...not a thing you can do about it except wait it out...nerves heal soooo slow....it is crazy...or physical therapy and then some...I am seriously trying to walk on the tread mill every day...since Christmas it has been really hit and miss....but I am trying...and I cannot say I always eat correctly but I am aware of what I eat now and I find myself trying to eat healthier...I would love to drop about 50 lbs....I also have a yoga book that has work outs in it...I am thinking of stretching some muscles that way too...will have nothing else to do after the kids move out..
Ok chickies....here is to a pain free night for you....peace and love,
LYnn
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